Guilt and sincere

My mak now admitted due to heavy coughing and asthma.
She expect me to stay....
I feel torn apart between taking care of her by staying in the hospital and my responsibility and the guilt for not attending to my husband...I ponder at my own questions.  Am I not sincere in caring for my mum? Am I such a bad person to be feeling so uncomfortable here and keep thinking about hubby medication and conditions?

Dear god I hv to go home at 4 am...it is one hour journey fr Shah Alam to Rawang.....